How are we all? Good? I hope you all are! It's almost Christmas! It is less than a month away! How scary is that! Well, my tree is up and decorated. It actually has been up since the middle of November, I just can't have 1 little old month for Christmas, I want to stretch it out for as long as I possibly can!! I LOVE Christmas! But really, who doesn't.
Here are some festive snaps...
Decorated!! I love Christmas!!
I wish I had a house that looked like this!! :)
I'm sorry if a lot of the blog posts lately haven't been super personal. They have been more direct 'about things'. I'm sorry, I don't mean to be 'holding back' or seem like I'm shutting you all out. I promise I'm not, I guess I've just been in a bit of a rut at the moment. Just down because of some personal things that just don't seem to playing out like I hope they would (NOT my marriage, that is perfect). I hate being in this sort of rut, you know the kind where you loose positivity, you kind of just feel yuk. I'll be honest I am not the most upbeat & kindest person when I get in these ruts. Like I naturally have a bad temper at times & I'm pretty sarcastic most days. But lately I just get really angry and just kind of shut myself off. Not that anything is anyones fault I just think I deal better with things on my own sometimes, which is true to an extent but often I (like any normal person) needs the support of others.
Oh I have that feeling, you know the sense of falling. Similar to that feeling when you know you are going to fall off of a bicycle (this I actually did that other month, yep. Smack bang into the pavement. I cut my hand open and everything. Right in front of Trent. Not my most glamorous moment!) Anyway back to the falling feeling, I feel myself falling into this horrid place of negativity & being angry. I have a lot of built up anger inside of me from pain caused by others & that is really unhealthy. I acknowledge that it is, but I have to find an outlet. A way I can get rid of it all. I just don't know what to do. Everything I want to do right now I am having so much trouble finding inspiration & that spark of creativity. Its fair to say how I am feeling right now SUCKS! I hate it. But I guess we all go through similar stages in life and well I feel acknowledging it and admitting that there is something wrong can help me move past it all. I just keep thinking of everything positive in my life and hopefully my mood will change and I can bounce out of this rut. Hopefully.
Sorry this is such a short post... I will be back with more 'happier' posts in a day or so!
Also a BIG congratulations to Rochelle! You have won the Charlotte Wood book 'Animal People'. If you could please email me your mailing details ASAP that would be fabulous and I will post your prize right out to you!! (email; email@example.com)
The 2nd commenter on the blog was Rochelle!! :) YAY...
Please don't be discouraged if you didn't win I am planning on doing another small give away soon. So make sure you enter, because if you aren't in it you can't win it!! :)
And now for some images/things that make me feel more positive & happy and also very grateful (when I am feeling down I like to take 'positive' photos, makes me feel better);
Hot pink glittery nails!! They remind me of birthday cupcakes! I really don't know why, but I love them. I am trying to grow my nails longer (my friend Libbi is inspiring me) so I keep my nails painted = no picking & breaking them!
I've been Christmas crafting. Yep that's right, I'm letting my festive freak flag fly! I love holidays!!
Christmas crafting + Christmas movies = awesome!!
The man that loves me so much. My husband, my best friend. I adore him!
My new squirrel item!!
Clean sheets & a pretty bed cover. My sister gave us this set for our wedding.
Inspiring quotes... :)
Anyway loves I'm off, hope you enjoyed this post where I was just a little honest, hope it didn't depress any of you! Congratulations to Rochelle once again!
Love you all.